He already has a new girlfriend and they're telling each other they love each other.

I am laughing.
I hope he dies. Hahaha.
Anger.
I hate that man more than anybody else on the planet.

This reminded me of me

Apparently I was almost a twin. O___O;

Inwards, and outwards.

School has been rough, and I still have three midterms this week-and it's only Tuesday. It's pretty crazy right now...

I was diagnosed with mood disorder and ADHD, so I take a medication that handles both, and so far it seems to be working. It's an anti-depressant. I took Strattera originally but the dosage made me so sick to my stomach that I lost twenty pounds in the month I was taking it. I don't know what the name of the drug is offhand, but I'll post it later maybe. It has a lawyer list of side-effects which I don't receive any of. This medication makes me feel really good. I smile a lot more, I have a lot more confidence, and everything seems to be getting better. I actually understand people now, and their emotions. I understand and am capable of controlling my own emotions now. I had a major problem with it until now.

We'll see how everything goes, I guess...

How neglectful I am, dearest journal.

I apologize for the inconvenience.

The medication's wearing thin
And the good weather's gone
Tragedy strikes us
And we are filled with grief

Misery and contentment
Hand in hand in horror
Drowning in the goodness
Of crying children's eyes

I watch out this window
Wondering how their minds work
Each cogwheel turning
Each thought consuming
Their souls within themselves

Wondering now, am I alone?
Do others not see and question?
Maybe that is why
I am on these drugs...

I ran into two people who don't like me at my work today. The computer I ended up getting was across from them as well- very awkward. Just reminds me of how much I hate them. I just walked passed them like they didn't mean anything and they were invisible and sat at my computer and just...went on my business. But knowing they're there and all of that...it's frightening and I hate it. Plus last week Sam told my brother to tell me hi...I just want them to leave me alone and pretend I don't exist anymore.

Reproductive Choice

* Supports a Woman's Right to Choose: President Obama understands that abortion is a divisive issue, and respects those who disagree with him. However, he has been a consistent champion of reproductive choice and will make preserving women's rights under Roe v. Wade a priority in his Adminstration. He opposes any constitutional amendment to overturn the Supreme Court's decision in that case.
* Preventing Unintended Pregnancy: President Obama was an original co-sponsor of legislation to expand access to contraception, health information, and preventive services to help reduce unintended pregnancies. Introduced in January 2007, the Prevention First Act will increase funding for family planning and comprehensive sex education that teaches both abstinence and safe sex methods. The Act will also end insurance discrimination against contraception, improve awareness about emergency contraception, and provide compassionate assistance to rape victims.

Today is the first day that I felt I wanted a cigarette. I came to school and could smell the smoke from someone's cigarette. I wanted to feel the smoke in my lungs. Argh. My husband has it worse off then I do. He's stuck with the hand to mouth habit.

My husband went and bought a pack of cigarettes. Guess he's not capable of quitting with me, and he got mad at me when I spoke up about it. I have not had any cravings whatsoever. This is almost easy, lol. He offered to buy menthol because it's all I can smoke, how thoughtful.